-re-create-

redo, recreate, replace, remake, revise, realign –
bring it back to where it’s supposed to be.
which is where, exactly?

why do all the words make it sound like I need to strip it all away to come out the other side? all I have seems to be empty – fear, exhaustion, loneliness – broken, heavy, jagged, cracked – certainly not those other things, done, creative, placed, made, aligned. mostly I see who and what I am by seeing who and what I am not, and left gaping and open, I stretch to fill myself with somehow more of less:

I see the flowering shrubs we almost pulled out before they bloomed,

and I see myself, my self, pulling my work out by the roots before you bring it to completion.

recreate my image in yours
remake my worth in yours

create and recreate
recreation in your creation