dreams – perhaps the greater

unexpectedly expecting

after 5 years of marriage where we’ve clung to the party line of “God is bigger than birth control and the best laid plans of mice and men,” we’re taking the training wheels off!

10 years ago today I walked across a stage and accepted my bachelor’s degree. I remember it very poorly; my ex-fiancé had broken up with me only a few weeks before, and most of the time in between had been filled with coffee, packing, nightmares, canceling wedding plans, panic attacks, goodbyes, ice cream, returning weddingContinue reading “remember”

-re-create-

redo, recreate, replace, remake, revise, realign – bring it back to where it’s supposed to be.which is where, exactly? why do all the words make it sound like I need to strip it all away to come out the other side? all I have seems to be empty – fear, exhaustion, loneliness – broken, heavy,Continue reading “-re-create-“

Prayer in the Night

Tish’s first book, The Liturgy of the Ordinary, is one of my all time favorites, and this is one now, too. such a good and thorough and thoughtful look at grief, heaviness, sorrow, fear, pain, anguish — and hope, joy, peace, not despite those other things, but because of and in the midst of them.Continue reading “Prayer in the Night”

10 year not-iversary

we all want a fairy tale, don’t we? when I was 21, I thought I had it all figured out. I’d met a guy, fallen in love. I was on track to finish college. we were young and everything was fresh and wonderful – and when he showed up at my parents’ house with aContinue reading “10 year not-iversary”

What Kind of Woman

I thoroughly enjoyed reading Kate Baer’s collection What Kind of Woman during this year’s national poetry month. “This is not a dress rehearsal before a better kind of life. Pick up your heavy burdens and leave them at the gate. I will hold the door for you.” “For now just remember how you felt theContinue reading “What Kind of Woman”