10 years ago today I walked across a stage and accepted my bachelor’s degree. I remember it very poorly; my ex-fiancé had broken up with me only a few weeks before, and most of the time in between had been filled with coffee, packing, nightmares, canceling wedding plans, panic attacks, goodbyes, ice cream, returning weddingContinue reading “remember”
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happy and hard, hard and happy
to those who have a great relationship with their mom, I see you ♥️to those who have a strained or tense relationship with their mom, I see you ♥️to those who have a great relationship with their child(ren), I see you ♥️to those who have a strained or tense relationship with their child(ren), I seeContinue reading “happy and hard, hard and happy”
-re-create-
redo, recreate, replace, remake, revise, realign – bring it back to where it’s supposed to be.which is where, exactly? why do all the words make it sound like I need to strip it all away to come out the other side? all I have seems to be empty – fear, exhaustion, loneliness – broken, heavy,Continue reading “-re-create-“
The Making of Biblical Womanhood
I read The Making of Biblical Womanhood by Beth Allison Barr I think one of the things I’m called to is to examine and explore where I’ve been silent or still in the past. I am grateful for my Christian education (homeschool through 12th grade + 8 years of higher education), and I know IContinue reading “The Making of Biblical Womanhood”
Prayer in the Night
Tish’s first book, The Liturgy of the Ordinary, is one of my all time favorites, and this is one now, too. such a good and thorough and thoughtful look at grief, heaviness, sorrow, fear, pain, anguish — and hope, joy, peace, not despite those other things, but because of and in the midst of them.Continue reading “Prayer in the Night”
Written In My Own Heart’s Blood
I finished my re-read of the main 8 books. waiting for #gotellthebeesthatiamgone and debating re-reading the Lord John novellas… #WrittenInMyOwnHeartsBlood is probably my favorite. the depth and width and breadth of the redemption, courage, forgiveness, grace, love, growth — 😭 As a redhead this made me laugh far more that it probably should have:“I didn’tContinue reading “Written In My Own Heart’s Blood”
10 year not-iversary
we all want a fairy tale, don’t we? when I was 21, I thought I had it all figured out. I’d met a guy, fallen in love. I was on track to finish college. we were young and everything was fresh and wonderful – and when he showed up at my parents’ house with aContinue reading “10 year not-iversary”
What Kind of Woman
I thoroughly enjoyed reading Kate Baer’s collection What Kind of Woman during this year’s national poetry month. “This is not a dress rehearsal before a better kind of life. Pick up your heavy burdens and leave them at the gate. I will hold the door for you.” “For now just remember how you felt theContinue reading “What Kind of Woman”
dreams and other questionable griefs
I’ve never really been one for dreams. I’m about 1/3 of the way through a two-year spiritual direction training program, and we recently did a series on dreams and dream interpretation. what animals mean, what themes to pick up on, what our actions or tones could mean, and how we interact with our subconscious, andContinue reading “dreams and other questionable griefs”
perhaps the greater 