spiritual formation – perhaps the greater

unexpectedly expecting

after 5 years of marriage where we’ve clung to the party line of “God is bigger than birth control and the best laid plans of mice and men,” we’re taking the training wheels off!

I’ve been writing and rewriting a few lines on purpose for the last several hours, and haven’t gotten beyond a few lines. I have only recently started to try working with more intentionality when it comes to my writing, and doing a 7 day challenge has been part of that. this week has been busyContinue reading “purpose”

remember

10 years ago today I walked across a stage and accepted my bachelor’s degree. I remember it very poorly; my ex-fiancé had broken up with me only a few weeks before, and most of the time in between had been filled with coffee, packing, nightmares, canceling wedding plans, panic attacks, goodbyes, ice cream, returning weddingContinue reading “remember”

refresh reality

earlier this month, I was trying to write, and I published a post focused on and played with the re-create-, the create and recreate, creation and recreation, how I mirror and reflect the creativity of the creator in how I create and recreate, how I honor the work of God through my play, and howContinue reading “refresh reality”

voice

I’m working on developing my voice. I think I’ve gone a long time as a peacekeeper rather than a peacemaker, and I’m learning to see and hear a difference there. a peacekeeper will not speak up or speak out, in order to keep the peace; a peacemaker will speak truth and clarity into a situation,Continue reading “voice”

-re-create-

redo, recreate, replace, remake, revise, realign – bring it back to where it’s supposed to be.which is where, exactly? why do all the words make it sound like I need to strip it all away to come out the other side? all I have seems to be empty – fear, exhaustion, loneliness – broken, heavy,Continue reading “-re-create-“

april 2021 in books

Happy Reading!I read 14 books in April, with 4,691 pages, bringing my year’s total to 54 books so far (I also started 3 other books but they’re not done yet).I read 8 non-fiction books, including 2 books of poetry, 1 audiobook, and 1 daily devotional, and 6 fiction books. I re-read 1 book (Written inContinue reading “april 2021 in books”

The Making of Biblical Womanhood

I read The Making of Biblical Womanhood by Beth Allison Barr I think one of the things I’m called to is to examine and explore where I’ve been silent or still in the past. I am grateful for my Christian education (homeschool through 12th grade + 8 years of higher education), and I know IContinue reading “The Making of Biblical Womanhood”

Prayer in the Night

Tish’s first book, The Liturgy of the Ordinary, is one of my all time favorites, and this is one now, too. such a good and thorough and thoughtful look at grief, heaviness, sorrow, fear, pain, anguish — and hope, joy, peace, not despite those other things, but because of and in the midst of them.Continue reading “Prayer in the Night”

10 year not-iversary

we all want a fairy tale, don’t we? when I was 21, I thought I had it all figured out. I’d met a guy, fallen in love. I was on track to finish college. we were young and everything was fresh and wonderful – and when he showed up at my parents’ house with aContinue reading “10 year not-iversary”